i love you!

hahahha

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 03:47:37 GMT

okay.. so everything has been completly good times. i dont even want to think about the bad even though there is alot. sometimes i just start to think about things and laugh.. even though i want to get really angry. laughign is the only way to go. over the week i got into a car accident in ocean city nj, and there were two underage girls in teh car with me. after just seeing one of my best friends in the hospital for 3 days because she actually did almost die.. as bad as it sounds, seeing that the one passanger in my car only had a minor scratch on her head made me feel reilved. i really need to go back to school i can't spell anymore. ahha. neways. i come home that night, feeling horrible about what happened even though a witness said that i had the green, as did the police report and the timing of the lights. i go out to have a cig on the porch and they are all takling to their friends about how "nicole almost died" blah blah blah. of course i jus twant to turn around and smack the shit out of them because it was disrespectful to even say that when i was near to try and amke me feel bad, and number two.. you didn't almost die. get a grip. im so fucking sick of people saying things for pity, like when another one of my friends passed out on a bar and claimed she almost died. no, you didn't almost die. if you were even close to death you would have had your stomach pumped and unconsious. and no, nicole didn't almost die, she had to get stitches on her head, and was also consious. im sorry if i sound liek a bitch, but maybe its just because things got blown out of proportion. you didn't almost die if 3 days later you are on top of some guy sucking face and partying. sorrryyyyY!!!!!!! re fucking diculous. the immaturity of some people amazes me. also, its not like its my fault you got in the car, you knew the conditions, and it was your choice to get into my car just as much as it was mine to drive it. fuckkkkkkking a man. i just needed to get taht all out because now i can think about the good. okay, great.

Sun, 14 May 2006 20:48:51 GMT

derrr

godo times

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 21:38:00 GMT

no more underage clubs. dramatics are no fun.

last night me and suz go bowllin taht was fun. it was weird to be out and be around ppl my age for once.. and id idn't even have to lie and say i was 23 bout anytin. kinda funny. damn though. it must suck to not be able to go out to clubs and bars and have to do that kinda shit evvverryy weekend. it would get prrtttyyy lame after a while.

im so tired though i ahve tgo back to work in a lil bti :(

mardi gras

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 04:25:59 GMT

well happy mardi gras everyone. so weird, bc it wa slike this big thing i was looking foward to. i was all excited today, i wore my beads and everything, and im like in a good mood sippin on my drink. so i go into school and im late for my first class and my teacher is like mean about it?!? shes like "derr dont dwindle into my class late and then sit down adn read the newspaper"
im like... AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT KNOWS ITS MARDI GRAS!??!?
wheres the partying spirits?!?
so after that, i go into spanish. i sat down for like, 2 mins, and then decided that i wanted to go party.

so im like.. looking aroudn campus for anyone esle that wants to party... and i dont even see a single soul with beads on.
to make things worse, i asked a girl if i could bum a cig and she snapped at me. bitch, whatever.
damnit. wahtever, i had my own party in the libarary, fuck the rest of em. i had a good time.

then i wnet shopping for like 2 1/2 hours, which was pure heaven. i didn't have any money, which was prolly a good thing. i love shopping.
I LOVE SHOPPING?!?
damnit, i wish there was a way to be rich without donig anythign illegal and not having a job.

SMOKE?!

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 04:19:19 GMT

yayye for polar bear plunge

i think pretty much every guy in la costa bar funneled a beer out of my bong
ah yes. we disoverd the secret to cutting in line at the bathrooms.. just use the guys bathroom?!? and its a great pick up spot, bc u can see what they are packin before u talk to em! hell! what genieses!
but dancing on stage with teh band and xtina was my favorite
loosing my flask, was not.
but, all in all good outweighted the bad.

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 04:46:41 GMT

happy valentines day yayye
i was so tired today i passed outand missed two of my classes.
damnit, i really lost track of my thoughts today

then when i smoked it like complelty cleared my head
amazing. and i didn't like trip out or anything.
i forgot about the casual smoking, and how it can be good for you.
okay, im goign to go to my room now.

ganja love

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 04:41:20 GMT

well well well

tonight in a conversation with alyssa, i referred to "us" not smoking.
which is funny, because alyssa
"stopped" smoking, but i didn't. it feels like i did though because i dont smoke everyday.

its so weird that something i used to do everyday is not such a big part of my life anymore.

yesterday, in a conversation with my hairdresser, i said that i smoke, "sometimes"... and as soon as the words left my mouth i was like.. wow.. yea.. i am that person that only smokes "sometimes".

its so odd because it feels like it used to define me, and now it doesnt.
i think the change in the weather (like the end of november) was when i stopped smoking reguarly.
as much as i love that beautiful plant, i feel like its only a summmer thing. in the summer when things flow freely it feels natural to smoke everyday, in the winter things are cold and serious, so it feels unnatural and weird to smoke. when i smoke now, its not the same. anyone who knows me will tell you i get so cold, to the point where im like shivering uncontrolably even if its 80 degrees in the car or house we are in. in the summer it just feels liek the air you breathe. do you know what i mean?

highlgihts of the day

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 23:42:03 GMT

hahahah so today i go to use the bathroom and im sitting there and im reading the stall walls nd it was like something about "scratcing my balls" and imlike.. hmm.. okay.. i wonder if i could be in teh guy sbathroom? but then i was like no, theres no way i would have seen urinals.

well, after emerging from teh stall, i see urinals, and a second later some dude walks in. i just like giggled and walked out. but it was a good laugh.

then in philosophy, this guy is so fine that sits in front of me. i was sitting there staring at his muscles and the teacher calls on me . so i started talking but i just sounded like an idiot bc i didn't really understand the question, and my limited vocabulary wouldn't allow me to finish a sentence, so he turns around and fills in the blank. ahhahaa. i got this big gay smile on my face bc i realized how hot his eyes were, then got all red, because i was staring at him, again. damn though. DAYMN.
thats a man for ya. SO fine.

DOUUUHHHKAYY!?

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 05:17:48 GMT

ahha. yea life is peachy.
schools good aside from falling asleep in algebra and being embaressed in front o feveryone when teach went on for the whole class about it.
no hot guys in my classes, except one possible in philosophy.
its kind of a bummer. the classes seem like its goign to be a breeze though, i dot know why everyone wa slike warning me about college being so hard. its seems liek im going to be breezy baby
LOL. the only problem i had was forgetting i wasn't allowed to just get up and leave and say,go lay out in the sun like in high school. i was really dissapointed when i realized that.
jess came over tonight, chilled with suzi and alyssa on sunday. nothing really new, just getting everything ready for party season, which kicks off feb 18 at the polar bear plunge.
time to tone up, loose some weight, and get tan to be ready for the season.im so excited.i can't wait to move to florida so it will be party season all year round instead of just feb-october
:)

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 02:46:05 GMT

i hate that i get all red in flustered when im around guys that are good in bed. it needes to stop, bc its embaressing.
...

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 04:10:50 GMT

i hate western doctors.

pissed FUCK FU FUCK

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 04:04:20 GMT

it pisses me the fuck off that i have to depend on my friends if i want to go on a big nice vacation, because i can't go myself.
a great example of this, is mardi gras. yea, i want to go really bad... but no one else does.. and if someone says they do its like .. okay well put up that money and lets go!?? not like.. okay.. well lets wait a littl ebit until the hotel prices are high. shut up shut up shut up shutup. i hate fucking depending on other people. i hate not having my fucking lisence. if it where up to me, i would just fucking go, and party the whole fucking time and not even have a hotel. i hate that not everyone thinks like i do, becuase im always fucking right about these things. its so fucking annoying
why the fuck do we need a hotel room!??! can someone sit someone i dont like in front of me and let me kick thier ass!??!??!?!? FUFCKKK!?!?i hate how people think its crazy that i want to like take vacations in my car. it really pisses me off. a lot.
and if i end up not going to mardi gras this year, im going to be mad for a really long time.
REALLY MAD. GOD i have so much anger inside of me right nwo i just want to like.. get drunk and beat the shit out of everyone.
YAYE!
i need my fucking lisencen fuckf uck fufkdsafusfdkafjdfjdSKFjdsfja;jdf sjklSIM SO MAD.

ne yars

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 20:08:13 GMT

new years eve was pretty sweeeet. shalane came over and we made some CABOBS that were soooo amaaizng good. i got my southern comfort, grey goose vodka, and beer. and champage... AND smokes, cigs everything i wanted... it wa slike christmas, but better.
so we made cbaosb . then suzi and chelsey came down and we looked at pictures and talked about old memories. i made hurricnaes, had about 7 hahahah... we "took a lil walk"... i had more hurricanes... had abeer, some shots of soco.. made a drink with teh grey goose... and then at midnight.. i had 3 glasse of champinge,and i was like "guys.. dont let me have anymore to drink".. which didn't really work because when we were laying on my bed after our second walk i was like "AHH IM SO THIRSTY.. and im looking around and UNFORTUALY there was only southern comfort in my room... hahahahah so i was forced to take a shot of that. my bAC was.25 and read "you are feeling confused and dizzy. having trouble doing things on your own, like standing. unusually high BAC level"
HAHAHAH. we contacted the spirits in my room....
then we wnet down and ended up playing poker with our sisterx, with my irish lucky beads and lucky beer boddle and aparntetly i was making jup my own rules.. but i dont remember taht.. w/e then we went form a walk and came back to watch dazed and confused and i made anther drink with the last of the bottle of soco.. the best drink of the ngiht... omggg. soo good. but we passed out . i was so proud of myself.. i coudl stand and talk all night, and i dont have a hangover this mornign. :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
great new years.. good times good TIMS>

"have you guys seen the sky latley?"

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 22:17:42 GMT

haha yes, so last night i hung out with jenn moe and alyssa for alil bit.. and im sitting there thinking about hwo i tried to take a pic of the sky the other day when it was really pretty.
im like "so have you guys seen the sky lately???" and they both turn around... "YES!! OMG LIKE LAST NIGHT! WE TOOK A PICTURE".

haha, no one else would notice that but jenn. anyone esle would look at me like.. shut up stoner. this is why i love her.
then i sletp over christinas house, which was good times.

i think friends are all like peices of you. do you know waht i mean?!
all my friends are so different, but like.. ithink its because i have different sides to me. its like.. when im with eacho one of them i get differnet vibes, but they are all good. when im with shalane, i feel like .. i can tell her about ghosts and not think im crazy. we also are both hardcore irish, so we have that cousin feeling. with alyssa, i feel like i can say pretty much anything about my sex life, when it was existatnt, and she wasn't going to think i was out of control. i feel like i can trust her more then anyone else, and i knwo that if we get in trouble, its goign to be cool, because we'll just smooth our way out of it. with jess, my crazy side comes out when we get completly loaded and go clubbing, or get so shitfaced taht we end up walking around the entire city of philadelphia at 3 in the morning, then SOMEHOW find our way back to the train station at 730.. and go home. with christina, i can be as dirty, retarded, and loud as i wnat to , because i knwo i could probably beat her with a peice of wood, and we'd still be friends. actually i know this, becasue its happend. and with danielle its like i clean my self up a little bit, but still have a good time, an dwe can talk about anything. and with jenn, i just get back to feeling like its summertime again, listening to bob marley, led zep, bad company.. all the tunes of summer....can't wait for summer 2006. im getting chills just thinking about it. that means its gonna be a good one.

beautiful new years blunts.

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 22:28:31 GMT

yummmm.

WELLL!?!?

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 18:10:10 GMT

well well well
good times eh kids?!?
today i went outside to lay out..bc it loked kinda warm.. but it wasn't.

i lasted about 5 mins.

can someone please take me to south beach?!? PLEASE!??
i can't wait until spring breakkkkkk.... this is TORTURE.

I NEED TO SLEEP?

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 19:18:37 GMT

i figured out why i have such crazy dreams....
so last night, i guess i fell slepp in the family room bc tucker was barking and it scared me.. so i stayed downstiars.. i guess it was around 2 whne i went to bed finally. then my mom woke me up at 6 by putting away dishes in the kitchen... so i had to go upstairs.. and fell asllep in my room. then at 1030 brittany called me and i was awake until like 11 just really tired.. then alyssa called at 1230.. and it woke m eup again.. then the cleanres came and i was trying to go back to sleep.. but i kept getting waked up by the vaccum. ahhh. so i need to get some more sleep but i have.. WORK? in an hour so if i fall asleep now il just be more tired?!?!!? WHEN AM I GOING TO SLEEP?!?!?!

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 03:18:46 GMT

i see so many people married at my work.. but its just like.. WHY? then you have to tell someone where you are all the time??? lol ill nevre understand it!
but then sometimes its like well maybe taht would be nice.. but other times its like.. when there is a room full of good looking people.. why can't you and your spouse just hit on other people and bring them home later!? i wish taht was like socially acceptable. then id have a boyfriend...peoples marriages/partnerships/whatever would be so much better .
i wish people could just generally enjoy one another, with out any strings being attached... and its so weird the way people can put other people down without even trying to. like..
i wish that things could only be groups, no competing and everyone could just say what they feel without being rude.

well alright.

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 19:01:29 GMT

life is moving by so quickly.

i can't believe its going to be a new year in a couple of weeks. its been a crazy , crazy , crazy year. ive done things i can't even believe i've done.

but best of all, ive never missed the party.

i dont know what this new year is going to bring. hopefully i get accepted to college. i will cream my pants if i get into university of miami. seeing that the adverage gpa is 4.04... i will be completly amazed. im hopefully though, and im not appliying anywhere else, i can't really see myself anywhere else. . . except u of florida.. but.. we all know what happned with that. but i dont see why not with my bad ass essay. haha.

hopefully i'll quit smoking and loose some weight.
but if not i guess life goes on.

for new years, i really just want to have a bbq with all of my close friends. just a non-drama fun, good time. maybe get a keg or two and just have a "good ol party."

everything is really good in my life right now. perfect. except i feel like im loosing one of my best friends, or alreayd lost. what makes me so upset is that i felt like we would be friends forever, and we would still be friends when we were like 90 drinking and smoking blunts. i know people change, and people grow apart, but i thought it would be different with me and my crew. i have really met some amazing women in the past 7 years, and i never want to stop being friends with any one of them. i can't imagine my life without my best friends. it really hurts my heart to think about.

this summer was so amazing, and i feel like an ass because its just hitting me now that its seriuosly.. over. im never going to have that feeling of complete freedom, and my biggest worry being my stash is getting low and i only have 2 shots of soco left.

oh goonnnnesss. i guess with all good things, come bad things right?

i have my freedom, but i dont have much time....

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 01:55:10 GMT

well, unfortunatly i just found out taht sean paul is in a long term relationship.

so i guess he wasn't my soulmate.. haha what a jokeee. hopefully he will be able to resist my charms on dec 15! hahah. hopefully.. nOT?!?

no but in all seriousness, i think i've already found my man..my mind always stumbles back to him and i get a really strong vibe that this is good.
either im really right, or really wrong about this. if im wrong, im going to feel like an idiot. such an idiot. and everyone can make fun of me for as long as they want. i prolly sound like an idiot even saying this.
but if im right, which i usually am, i will be the happiest girl... ever.
we'll see. only time will tell.

past couple of days, have been good. drinking and smoking as usual, got pulled over yesterday with b ward and kyle. we had smokes and drinks on us, but as usual, smoothed our way out of it.

i disovered something new today. instead of just casually carrying my beer with me while i take a jog, put a brown bag over it.that way, i dont have to hide it when cops come. thanks shalane.

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 21:32:35 GMT

last night i had a dream. very werid. i woke upand i thought it was real. i always do this. friday night i had really bad dagavoo... and i always do. i think these dreams i have are reality, but like in my head. im so confused. and im never, ever taking perks again. il just stick with that ganja and alcohol.
lol
after i realized where i was and what was going on, my first thoughts laying in bed where "damn, i love smoking weed and drinking."
i do. i really do.

so friday went out with jess and two guys who were losers. what a suprise. i did get smkoed up and some cherry pie though, so all in all it was a good night.
thursday, i went to see harry potter with alyssa at 12. what a WILD night! didn't get home till 3!lol. harry potter is pretty hot thought.. i love riding in cars when no one in it has their lisence.

saturday i went to aunt collen and uncle toms. i realized how funny it is that i have so many "uncles" and "aunts" that arn't really related to me by blood.

i was going to go to embassay, but i was in no shape to after those stupid perks fucked me up.

sunday, today, i woke up, confused, and danielle called to go out ot brunch, like every sunday. every sunday morning is the same

1pm: phone rings
"Danielle Catagnu" is on the screen
i answer the phone "UHHHH ITS SO FUKNG EARLY"
"wake up?!? im bord?"
we go to moccias, eat.
but today was different. we went to grammys and saw lola afterwards.

no im going out to dinner. after i make myself a lovley drink.

then, im going to smoke, drink and be merry. i love sundays.

beautiful.

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 04:56:57 GMT

today i worked 14 hours. wawa from 7-3 and then moccias from 4-10. what a champ.

then i came home and bought tickets to see sean paul on december 15.

tomarrow night is going to be wild.

liz's 18th birthday.

oh shit.

"HEY DID YOU DROP YOUR WEED?!??!"

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 03:10:31 GMT

today at work, i got to work the register, so i was excited.
this is going to sound like a lie because its so rediculous, but i dont even care, because its true
:
so whatever im ringing people out, not really paying attention to whats going on. im ringing out this guy, and i hear him say "HEY DID YOU DROP YOUR WEED!?" and im like ... did he just say what i think....?? i look up and teh guy is holding almost a 1/4 in his hand?!?!? seriously, my jaw just like DROPPED. and then he starts laughing and hes like "haha someone must have dropped it when they were getting their change! its not mine i swear!?!?" and im like... lol "well OBVIOUSLY or you wouldn't be giving it to me?!?" meanwhile, there is a line of people just like wtf?! so i dont really know what to do so i just like put it on the counter and finished ringing him out. then another worker comes over and is like WHAT IS THAT?!?!?!??! and the guy goes "ITS MARAJUANA!!" LOL. lol so she took it and called the cops.

SO random.i just hope no one like.. saw whoever drop it or like the cameras didn't catch it because that would suck.

then like everyone just acted liek nothing happend? so i asked my manager if it had happened before, and shes like.. yea.. ive found it in the store twice?!? LOL. i now offically like my job.

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 02:16:33 GMT

dude.
DUDE.
today i WASHED DISHES at wawa. oh. HELL. HELLLLLLL no.
thats not what i signed up for.
and i didn't sign up to fucking sweep the floor, which i did as well.
not to sound likea fucking princess or anything but seroiusly--------
CAN ANYONE HONESTLY SEE ME WASHING DISHES AND SWEEPING FLOORS??!?!??!?!AT WAWA??!?!??!?!?!??
i do that shit at home, why the fuck would i want to do itat my job?!??
im getting a new job. lol. SORRY TO BE A QUITTER MOM. a good part of the day was i found my new party buddies; two chicks from ireland- the homeland. their accent is so cute lol. and we have matching eyes.

god i love going to the gym and getting all sweaty it really turns me on. ive been turned on now for pretty much the past week. anything male and even remotly attractive that walks by me i can't hlep but ponder how he would be in bed.
however, it was no good when my sister kicked my ass in running the mile on the treadmill, seeing that shes 12.

embaressing? yes. but i got her back in DDR HAHAHHAHAH!

"what would you do if i was just like "LATER?!" and casually fell out this window?!?"

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 21:24:16 GMT

lol. this weekend was good.
i topped my record for most orgasms in one day,went out to dinner/mall with shalane, had starbucks twice, got "sloshed" with christina, made an embaressing drunk phone call to my neighbor, worked, bought cigs from wawa, had a CRAZY ass fucking dream***, and bought some coach sneeks ic an't stop staring at, got my hair done, and two shirts.
yea boiiiiii.

*** yea so anyways-
i had a dream last night that me and chrsitina wnet to california and randomly were hanigng out with everyone from laguna beach and i was in the middle of trying to bang jasons hot friend, and when i went to get up jasons like "whast that all over your pants?!?" and i was wearing my pink sweats and there was blood all over them, and i just like casually denied it, and then i look back and there is blood all over jasons bed. lol. but that definatly didn't stop the festivies. and then we like went back home and jessica was there and she was like "yea im from pottstown?!?" lol. sooo weird. there was alot more to it, but i kept waking up like every 2 hours and telling christina about it and shes like... wtf?!??!?! lol then this morning she tells me that i was like... laughing and shaking in my sleep?!??! and she tried to wake me up and i just kept laughing?!? lol so thats kinda weird. i seroiusly think that i go into a different world when i sleep and everything that i dream is actually happening to me, but then i just wake up in a different place because some of the shit taht happens is just to real.